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i don’t miss you, i’m just lonely.

The first few days being back at home have been great but suddenly everything is more serious. and i need to make decisions fast and its not just like small ones its about my life for the next few years. i feel like i have done everything the wrong way round now. i dont know what to think, or what i want. its so hard to be happy when i have no money, no man, no job and no prospects. i havent achieved much this year and its nearly over i feel like i have let myself down. this is horrible having to decide everything now. i need to snuggle in my best friends bed with movies and just forget about the rest of the world. at least i know i have the best friend i could ask for. that gives me great comfort. 

Why can’t all this shit just be simple?

honestly i have had so many massive things to think about recently, big decisions and small choices, my brain feels like its about to explode, but i feel like i am getting somewhere now…. but i need to get down to business.

here is a bit of advice that literally everyone should know….

life is fucking unfair.

i came over to australia to get away from a lot of things, to have an amazing time with my best friends and enjoy life for a bit and sort out what i want to do.

well one left, the other recently moved out with her boyfriend and although i am living with two amazing girls who have just gone to pick up there two friends. (i have no idea how to feel about that.) i am just lonely. i came half way around the world. and god made me lonely.

WTF.